second impression

Have you ever adored/disliked someone so much only to find out that they aren't like how you thought they were?

That happened to me yesterday.

You know how people say, don't judge a book by its cover? I always think that's a lot of crap. How do you expect everyone to know everyone personally? No. You choose what first impression you wanna give to people. It really is your decision.

You can't expect people to buy your cupcakes when you yourselves are showing pictures of the cupcakes with a dead cockroach next to them. You can't be blaming people for not talking to you when you keep giving a straight face to people, or keep rolling your eyes when people try to start a conversation with you. You can't expect people to like you when you keep looking up when you're walking down the cafe, let alone, smile.

I am not excluded. I have my first impression on everyone too. Hey, it shows that you are such an observant okay, which will be a good trait for your resume. Hehe

But hey, who says you can't have a second impression?

There is this one girl in my office. Very petite, fair skin, short bangs, and she wears bright red lipsticks most of the time. She doesn't smile to people or maybe to me, which is why I thought she was a lil bit sombong. That has been my first impression until .... one day I was queuing to buy a sweetcorn in the cafe. She was behind me in the line. I gave RM50 note to the cashier because the sweetcorn was RM1.50 and I only had RM1 small change. I had no coins. But the cashier guy also didn't have small change to give my balance and he was asking me to wait out of the line till he has enough. But the girl behind me kindly offered to pay for the 50 cent. That's when she created the second impression. She's not sombong but very kind. I thanked her and we talked a lil bit before we both head back to our own department. Now see what I meant? Second impression is as important as the first one. I never took this matter lightly.

Not so good first impression, turns into a great second impression.

But this is not from yesterday's story. Yesterday's story starts like this ...

I am not so much a fan of any celebrities because, you know, they are celebrities. I watch them all, but I don't pick favorites.It's either I like their acting or they didn't really make an impact. I am fair like that. I mean, what are the options? Sure, we see them on TV all the time with expensive clothes and pretty face (they have make up on even they're about to sleep), eating luxury food and etc etc, but do we know them personally?

We don't. 

Isn't it amazing how much we can love someone without we even know them? Isn't it also weird how mad we can be when people talk bad about the celebrity we love? So weird! If you don't agree with me, that means you haven't met the K-pop lovers yet. Find one and try to argue with them. You'll regret.

See, the power of the first impression. You haven't even met them in person.

But you can't help it especially when you see one that reflects yourself or maybe one that you feel like you wanna be like them. Not physically but spiritually, as in their inner self and characters. I do have one or two celebrities that I really like too. Doesn't sound so fair now, do I?

Actually, I like so many celebrities through their little things. I like one by the way they talk, I like the other by the way she consistently keeps a good look. You know, the small small things.

Cutting the babble short ... I bumped into my long-time favorite celebrity yesterday! I got very excited and accidentally wave my hand a little bit to her, as in saying hi. Lame, I know. I really like her okay!

She smiled a lil bit to me and walked passed. I noticed she was rushing into the cinema. I didn't really mind. But fate has written that I bumped into her again when I went into the Premiere hall for my movie, and there she was, sitting on the lounge just chit chatting with her clicks. I thought this is a good time to snap picture with her. Little did I know that she was that .... what's the word .... arrogant? I won't be telling the details of our little conversation here.

Let me just say, she wasn't as friendly as I thought she was. I got very disappointed I could just cry. She seems so real on TV and magazines. She's like Malaysia's sweetheart. Everybody loves her, everybody. Was it just me she doesn't like? Sigh. As I said, I'm not so much into any celebrities but when I say I like one, it means I really really like her/him. Now I'm just disappointed. Very disappointed. She totally ruined my great first impression on her. Now I have to live with the second. Don't think I would be seeing her again to make the 3rd impression now.

Isk isk. I'm still trying to get over her. So hard to click this un-follow button on her Instagram.